Dawn you certainly have turned your life around and should be VERY proud as im sure your son is of all you have done , this should be treated as your greatest win ever !
Originally Posted by fitbody
Dawn you certainly have turned your life around and should be VERY proud as im sure your son is of all you have done , this should be treated as your greatest win ever !
Energy & Persistance alter all things - Ben Franklin
Oct 20, 2011
pt of the nite
"Keep true, never be ashamed of doing right,
decide on what you think is right and stick to it."
INTEGRITY of my my most valued values
"Your reputation and integrity are everything.
Follow through on what you say you’re going to do.
Your credibility can only be built over time,
and it is built from the history of your words and actions."
Dawn reloading....
10 months out of Canadians 2011
Oct 21, 2011
pt of day
Strength is a matter of a made up mind.
"There is no limit to what you can imagine.
And with commitment, with effort, what you can imagine you can become.
Put your mind to work for you.
Believe that you can do it.
The world will tell you that you can't.
Yet, in your belief you'll find the strength,
you'll find the ability,
to do it anyway."
Dawn reloading...
10 months to Canadian Nationals
thank you
and you're right
the night before last when we were downtown killing time walkin the streets of Vancouver before the chocolate 101 course was to start
we were waitin for traffic so we could cross this road
on the other side this addict is yelling something
when we crossed i realized he was talking / yelling at me
even in a hoody i guess i still look BIG lol
he's goin on about how he used to weight 250 and then he got hooked on herion
he had his pipe etc right there on the steps
Brandon and Storm tried to ingnore him and keep walking but i stopped and talked to him
Brandon seemed a bit bewildered by me stopping and talking to him
but i always make time for addicts no matter where or what condition they're in
i explained how i just turned 15 yrs clean and i was a crack addict
we talked quite awhile
i told him to go to NA Narcotics Anonymous
and tried to instill in him hope that you can get clean and stay clean if you want it bad enough
pix below are of my 15 year medallion i got yesterday
it's actually black and purple but for some reason it looks blue lol
15 yrs...congrats to you Dawn..that is no easy task. I know many people who have tried (to get clean) but life has a way of pulling them back and their addiction takes over...a huge accomplishment for you and be proud....and thank you for sharing your experience with this battle and hopefully you will inspire others.
I have spent a lot of time in the east end of Vancouver in various roles and am not naive about addictions and the battles that come with them...keep the course.
Congrats again.
This is awesome Dawn , its got "pay it forward " written all over it . Many others would just keep walking ......Congrats !
Energy & Persistance alter all things - Ben Franklin
Oct 21, 2011
pt of the nite
AN ATTITUDE OF GRATITUDE: What you focus on expands,
and when you focus on the goodness in your life, you create more of it.
Opportunities, relationships, even money flowed my way
when I learned to be grateful no matter what happened in my life.
Joy is a heart full and a mind purified by gratitude.
ps: i'm grateful to get to eat whatever i want lol
actually i'm grateful for a hell of alot more than that
i'm grateful for my life, my health, my son, my family, my husband, my pets, my friends, my clients, my car (1990 VW Golf) ,
my gym (Platinum's cool) , my country (Yeah Canada), my happiness, my clean time, friggin' everything... my lifes awesome !
Dawn reloading
10 months outta Canadian Nationals 2012
i never forget where i was
and you just never know if you give someone a glimpse of HOPE that may be all they need
BY ME STAYING CLEAN AND SHARING MY STORY THEN I "AM THE MESSAGE"
THE MESSAGE OF HOPE
THAT ANY ADDICT CAN GET CLEAN AND STAY CLEAN
my Addictions Doctor Dr.Douglas Coleman said i was one of the worst he's ever seen
i was just PURE INSANE
but i had the will to not die in addicition
i'd had enough
i went to 2 Treatment Centers got kicked out of both
1st Maple Ridge Treatment Center then was a co-ed facility i detoxed in there got kicked out in 4 wks of a 6 wk program lol
then i said **** you guys i'm gonna stay clean
i went to 3 - 4 or more meetings a day
NA, AA, COCAINE ANONYMOUS, MARIJUANA ANONYMOUS, OVEREATERS ANONYMOUS, SEXAHOLICS ANONYMOUS
i'd lost my drivers license due to drinking and driving lol
so was on the bus to meeting after meeting
i was declared by my doctor "MEDICALLY INABLE TO WORK" so was on "MEDICAL EMPLOYMENT INSURANCE"
so was at a morning meeting, then lunch meeting, then evening meeting, then sometimes i'd go to the Recovery Club for a midnite meeting
bound and determined i was
i did meetings like i did my drugs... I POUNDED IT !!!!!!
THE ONLY WAY I DO THINGS IS ALL OR NOTHING
i hadta retrain my brain
i had to find the path that many before me had
i had to open my mind
cuz i was raised not to believe in God or a higher power
i was raised an Atheist
but in 12 step programs you HAVETA HAVE A "HIGHER POWER"
so at 1st i just wrote my baby brother Bruce's (who died in 1991) name on my hand over and over again every day with 2 hearts
cuz i believed that something was watching out over me
something had to be cuz theres no way i should be alive
all the drinking and driving i did, all the car accidents, i couldn't count how many cars i've totalled, not just wrecked totalled...
all the insane predicaments i'd put myself in
the amount of chemicals i'd injested orally, snorted, smoked
crack, speed, pharmaceuticals, alcohol by the gallons, pot, amphetamines, designer drugs,
piles of coke & speed snorted, and oh the X-tasy wow like 5 - 10 a day hahaha
how the hell am i still alive
BUT FOR THE GRACE OF GOD THERE GO I THATZ WHY
and i've been keep around for a reason
and when i heard in those meetings...
"ONE IS TOO MANY AND A 1000 IS NEVER ENOUGH"
oh boy oh baby did i get that one
there was never 1 drink, 1 toke, 1 line, 1 hit NOOOOOOOOOOOOO NEVER
that 1... hell who the hell would know where i'd end up, another city, province, country SERIOUSLY
jail AGAIN !!!!!!!!! crap
oh man
all true
my life is crazier than any movie i guarantee you
and i lived thru it all
and sitting in those rooms those meetings i heard a message of hope
a message that any addict can get clean and stay clean if you apply the program to your life
and don't worry about anyone else you gotta be selfish you gotta be there for you
and you gotta do whatever it takes to get clean and stay clean
you haveta change everything
all your friends, your thinking everything
and you haveta been committed
and you haveta know without a shadow of a doubt YOU ARE AN ADDICT
which means you can never again have a drink, a toke a line a NOTHING
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO YOU ARE DONE IT'S OVER
and in order to have a happy healthy life
you not only haveta abstain for using whatever it is you use...
drugs, alcohol, shopping, sex, gambling, food
you haveta apply the program to your life for the rest of your life
then and only then will you have RECOVERY
if you don't you are only a dry drunk you may not use but you have still the sickness within you poisoning you
TRUE RECOVERY IS TRUE WELLNESS... WHOLENESS
and it is here you find true happiness
LOOK NOT TO WHAT NEEDS TO BE CHANGED IN THE WORLD
BUT WHAT NEEDS TO BE CHANGED IN YOURSELF
and because i surrendered to the program
surrendered to the fact i'm an addict and always will be an addict
it is here that I FOUND MY TRUE POWER
and it took me a long time to get where i called my higher power GOD
but i am not religious
but do believe in theres some out there greater than myself
i believe in angels
i believe theres something thats watched out over me
all i know is this
the program of NA works
i'm a living example
thank you for my clean time
love always Dawn xox
Last edited by fitbody; 21-10-2011 at 10:39 PM.
thank you and you are right
i remember when i was at Maple Ridge treatment center they said about 2 % addicts that get clean stay clean
most die
alot i know have died since i came in
and i'm sure there's lots i don't know about died too
i always share my story in hopes that if it helps just one person it was worth it
and you never know who it affects
it's very interesting
most people are affected in some way if not themselves a family member or a friend a co-worker
addiction crosses every race, every class of people, every profession
i will go to any length to help someone get clean
Offical News: MENS PHYSIQUE & WOMENS PHSIQUE classes
WILL BE STARTING here in BC in 2012
at the Kelowna Show, then Fort St John
then the BC's.... onward
Posting Permissions
Reply With Quote