RANT ALERT

i am fuming! me and my gym buddy were finishing up our routine when she got to talking about how much she hated high school and all the comments (about her weight) and i was kind of taken back because we have talked about this before but the way she brought it up right after i finished my set, and i put my headphones in, and i got to thinking the 6 or so high school students 15 feet off lifting weights were making jokes and stuff, so i asked her if anyone said anything, and she is one of the nicest people alive and just said oh no don't worry about it, i'm so scared from high school i don't care anymore. This made me furious, i was just chatting with her and she did admit one night while i wasn't there there was a bunch of guys making jokes and what not, and i could have crushed a semi truck at this point! i strictly told her if anyone says ANYTHING hurtful or disrespectful to let me know, i have NO!!!!!! tolerance for this!!! She is not in amazing shape but she is losing weight at a great and consistent level, and she works SO much harder then 99% of the people in there every work out! So my walk back to my apartment was like 30% shorter then usual cause i was fuming, i think lifting weights gives me roid rage because i could have smashed every car window i seen! I do not think anyone would say anything while i am there, although i am only 5' 6" 135 lbs i am one of the big not big guys there, and one of a handful of peopel that can lift the 90 lbs dumbbells off the rack and press then and the only one under 180 lbs that can, so i have a certain amount of respect in there, but i could have rounds housed these kids with a bar bell!

Just for the record every time i hear story about this or what ever it takes me back to one specific even in my past, i was in grade 10, 4' tall, and probably weighed 140 lbs, so i was chubby encroaching fat, and 2 guys i have known sense i was 4 years old, one 6' 1" and the other 5' 10" and fairly athletic decided it would be fun to drag me into the one washroom and push me around a bit... yeah i was thrilled! there was very very little i could do but take a strong upper lip and push back with everything i had! and this may sound cruel but it was one of HUNDREDS of occasions i was physically bullied, i cannot recall any day in my entire school career that i was not brutally picked on.

the math on why, 5 years old 2' 8" 35 lbs, 15 years old 4' 140 lbs, 17 years old 5' 6" 140 lbs. plus i had my arthritis that basically crippled me, arthritis causes abnormal limb growth, so my right leg is about 1" shorter then my left so i have quite the limp when i walk, and my jaw did not grow fast enough to accommodate my teeth so they are pretty f"""" up. There was a whole list of things they had so i take the approach that hearing it happen and not doing anything is as bad as doing it.

OOOO yeah i went to the gym today >_< haha i got a solid 5 reps 90 lbs dumbbells flat bench, 5 reps 80 lbs incline bench dumbbells, 5 reps and 3 reps standing bar bell shoulder press at 135 lbs, and just my usual numbers.