Addictions.. are you or have you been?

[canadianmuscle0803]

I have decided to let my guard down a bit and share my story with you guys.. I know this may not be the best idea for many reasons but I feel this might really help someone out there in the same struggles that I have faced, I have had a rough childhood as far as my father has been concerned, he was never there for us, my mother was the only one pushing the weight and doing everything it took to raise my sister and I, I really hated him for this, he was an abusive/alcoholic/drug addict, and as I grew up I swore to myself I would never let myself get this way, sure enough my second year in high school i started doing drugs and drinking rather heavily, this carried on for quite some, i just figured this is how life is so i went with it.. then i smartened up for a bit, got a real good job, starting taking out my frustration on weights and eating well.. life was great, had a good girlfriend, life was wonderful.. soon enough things fell to the shitter again, we broke up and i started abusing myself again.. to make this story short I fell back into the cycle of addiction once again, now due to the fact that I was older I had way more connections for very good drugs... (prescriptions) mainly pain killers like oxy's and percs, i started out small and then eventually worked myself up to a dose that I wont even mention due to the fact that I should be dead right now.. but there was much more, if i didnt have those i would drink vodka straight, do coke, you name it!!! this was my perception of reality once again, well just recently I hit a point in my life where I really questioned why I have been doing this, I recently got engaged to a wonderful women and im slowly starting to realize that I may have lose her through this horror story of mine, I know she loves me but love is not enough when the one abusing themselves does not have ears or a mind to understand what the real problem is, either way I can only do so much in this matter, I love her to death but she does not deserve an asshole like myself, I have seen loved one's around me fall due to my behaviour and utter selfishness, so I just gave up and now im on the path that I have always wanted to be on.. Im seeing a physiologist every week and im going to addiction meetings every day.. I just want others out there that feel alone in this world and are having struggles in life to know that YOUR NOT ALONE!!! take this as you may, you might not be addicted to drugs like I was, but you may have other issues that you can relate to mine.. Im sorry if this was uncalled for but I really needed to let this out and bodybuilders are the closest things I have that I can truly relate to.. Thank you for listening to my little story.. anyone going through struggles in their lives right now, please don't be afraid to comment or even share your personal experience..

Thank you and God Bless.

[canadianmuscle0803]

by the way, this is day 5 of my total recovery, i have not touched a single substance for 5 days thus far but this is a daily fight for me, iam an addict.. so i ask, please pray for me and my recovery as I know that this will be the battle of my life..

[Tiamat]

Hang in there bro, it gets easier as you go on. The hardest part comes when life either stagnates or you are under a lot of pressure and or stress and feeling depressed. That is when you will be tested again and if you can last through it, you will be free of your demons.

Good luck. I didn't have it as bad as you but I did drink way too much in the past and smoked way too much too.

[canadianmuscle0803]

Hang in there bro, it gets easier as you go on. The hardest part comes when life either stagnates or you are under a lot of pressure and or stress and feeling depressed. That is when you will be tested again and if you can last through it, you will be free of your demons.

Good luck. I didn't have it as bad as you but I did drink way too much in the past and smoked way too much too.

thanks for your reply, i really appreciate the encouragement, in all honesty I have never been more focused and determined to beat something so damn bad.. my mind is totally set on where i want my life to be, and i choose freedom over this bondage I have been living, when i was really heavy into drugs I never had a choice, it was automatic.. now i feel i have my control back and damn does it feel good..

I know many of you out there know me from beyond this board.. i just wanna say thanks to all of you for everything.

[champcar99]

, please pray for me and my recovery as I know that this will be the battle of my life..

I will bro...You need to be STRONG think of your family, your girl..your friends.
think of all good things that come with a sober head and a clean life style..nothing good comes from abusing yourself..

:)

[canadianmuscle0803]

I will bro...You need to be STRONG think of your family, your girl..your friends.
think of all good things that come with a sober head and a clean life style..nothing good comes from abusing yourself..

:)

cheers bro.. much appreciated. :)

[cdnsoldier]

I have never been addicted but I have watched better men than me get addicted.

Addiction can happen to anyone at anytime in your life and I never thumb my nose at people struggling because I have learned one thing in my life: Anyone can get addicted to anything one way or another. It's not diffcult. It's as easy as going for a surgery, being prescribed percs and then not being able to get off them.

Good luck you my friend, it will be tough but you can beat it. I seen many boys in Afghanistan get addicted to opiates simply by starting to chew down "opium balls" to kill the boredom and then moved on to harder forms of the drug. Stay strong.

[waderow]

youre a smart strong intelligent guy.

Being able to recognize the problem, admit its a problem, and being able to talk about this is huge. Most are in denial about it, and would never discuss such an issue. And this is why men are so prone to addiction... they never talk about it. We are all a bunch of "tough guys" who don't have feelings.

I have struggled myself in years past, and I feel my substance and gambling abuse stemmed from my fathers death. He was killed in an accident when I was 15 yo. I had football to keep me a float for the first few years, but after a while, I fell in with unsavory friends, and gave up on ball, and turned to drugs, alcohol and violence.

I would push the limits on doses and would routinely take 8 doubles of LSD, or eat a half ounce of mushrooms in a night and smoke a few grams of weed, a case of beer and then beat some poor ****ers up in a chemical rage.

It was weird, as one day I looked in the mirror, and saw a different guy. Not me. A moment of clarity? I don't know. I didn't like what I saw, so I snapped out of it, got new friends, began to get fit again, and concentrated on life.

A few times over the years I fell back in with booze, and realized that to keep straight, I need a few things in my life:

the gym
a good girl
a career that keeps me positive
and a cat

You notice there are no friends there? Any friend I have ever had has been alcoholic or drug abuser or otherwise a negative impact. I still have friends, but hardly ever see them. Their friday night is booze and cigarettes, and my friday night is either the gym, or a movie and the GF.

Its never too late to get help if you need it and there are hundreds of thousands of others like you, and there is always someone willing to bend over backwards to listen and help.

[Gettin'r'round]

Stay strong bro. What about a support group/sponsor? Getting someone to call when the demons come calling? Someone who has been there and knows exactly what your going through.

I've been very lucky to have been blessed with a personality that doesn't get addicted to anything. Thankfully as I've always had easy access to a variety of substances, some very nice thank you.

[L3]

for the most part i think bodybuiders as a cultural niche have addictive personalities... i know i am for sure, but not with everything. i think the key is to understand in which way you are crazy. everyone is "not right" in their head, some people to a bigger degree than others. the people you think are normal, well theyre not, they just learned to control their behaviour, no easy thing to do.
ive been addicted to smoking blow at 15, and i quit that at 16.
ive been addicted to cigarettes since 14 , and i quit that 2 years ago.
ive been borderline alchoholic since 14, and i quit that 2 years ago.



been smoking pot for the last 7 years, and two nights ago i told myself, now is the time to quit. well, i lasted 1 ****ing day. spent an hour laying in my bed staring at the ceiling, just waiting for time to pass by. its such a big part of my life, i dont even notice it anymore. feels ****ing shitty when you realize that youre high all the time, being normal feels awkward to say the least.

good luck bro, the most improtant thing i feel is to find something to keep your mind busy in place of the chemicals...

[juggybuggy]

I can totally relate to your story.
I also come from a very rough background, had a abusive POS for a father, by the time I was 12 years old I was into drugs. I have struggled my whole life with addictions. I have been clean for awhile now, but I really have to be careful because I have cleaned up before only to slide back to old ways.
With my addictive personality, I probably never should of touched AAS, because now I am addicted to them.
Oh well, I just wouldn't feel like myself if I wasn't hooked on something.

[hellfish]

"...Im seeing a physiologist every week and im going to addiction meetings every day..."

That's your key right there bro, don't stop that, don't miss a single meeting, don't let anything in life become more important than that right now.

I've traveled the path your on right now, I've been through that vicious cycle, and I know what a minute by minute nightmarish struggle it is to beat those demons.

Do not stop believing in yourself! No matter what! Remember what is important, and right now the most important thing is your recovery. Its even more important than any relationship in your life. Without a healed relationship with yourself, where you are truly happy with the man you have become, you can't have a healthy relationship with others. Now I don't mean throw everybody out of your life, but you need to be able to recognize those moments where you have to say... "Whoah, this isn't what "I" need..." and get out of there. Take care of #1! A real man is a man who falls down and gets right back up, not one who is a tough guy yelling from the sidelines.

Then you'll be able to have a healthy, happy relationship with your significant other, your family, whoever, and everything else in life will fall in place. Baby steps, baby steps, one step at a time. Hold your head high, be proud of every single little accomplishment you make, no matter how insignificant, al the while teaching yourself to love yourself.



God grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change;
Courage to change the things I can;
And wisdom to know the difference.....



Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.....

[RagingRandy]

Hey I am glad you are at a point you can share. This is a sign that you are ready to change. I have been there and know what it takes to get out. What did it for me is that I needed to learn contentment. I think this is something lacking in society. We are dissatisfied and disillusioned by media and our lust for material gain. People need to travel a little and see how most of the world lives to realize how fortunate we are.

This helped me a lot. Commit it to memory.

Philippians 4:12-13
I have experienced times of need and times of abundance. In any and every circumstance I have learned the secret of contentment, whether I go satisfied or hungry, have plenty or nothing. 4:13 I am able to do all things through the one who strengthens me.

I will keep you in my prayers and know that Christ has great things planned for you.

Your Brother in Christ,
RR

[LIVEHARD]

thanks for your reply, i really appreciate the encouragement, in all honesty I have never been more focused and determined to beat something so damn bad.. my mind is totally set on where i want my life to be, and i choose freedom over this bondage I have been living, when i was really heavy into drugs I never had a choice, it was automatic.. now i feel i have my control back and damn does it feel good..

I know many of you out there know me from beyond this board.. i just wanna say thanks to all of you for everything.

I have been through treatment twice once at 21 and again last year because a doctor gave mr meds and it set me over the edge

You were born an addict anyone with addiction was born that way
there is no cure just a solution Im sure you know yours

best

[BritishColumbian]

Hey Bro, thanks for sharing. I think with the lot of us its iether all or nothing. If I wasnt obsessed with training, eating and test injections I'm sure I would be obsessed with drinking as much beer and doing rec drugs everyday as I possibly could. So hang in there and be dedicated with your BBing and stay healthy bro. You are not alone~BC

[manfreakca]

thats deep bro!I know my dad used to beat the livin shit out of us if we deserved it or not,but i forgive him.In school i abused drugs and probably through away school sports scholarships cause of it,and also a gereat education,thank God i have a decent payin job anyway.Workin out saved myself from harder and potential drugs i find.U got a good woman that helps alot to!!Do rite for her and your future bro.Last go to church on Sundays i feel it gives me great comfort and control in my life,with Gods blessings!!U need to tlk or need advice u know how to reach me!!God Bless

[piller01]

i to am a recovering drug addict my prayers go out to you as we fight to be who we are meant to be and i know i'm a hell of a better person when i'm clean and sober.if you ever need to talk to someone that has been exactly where are/been hit me up sometimes i need to talk to someone that's been there also.....

[LIVEHARD]

i to am a recovering drug addict my prayers go out to you as we fight to be who we are meant to be and i know i'm a hell of a better person when i'm clean and sober.if you ever need to talk to someone that has been exactly where are/been hit me up sometimes i need to talk to someone that's been there also.....

looks like we all have allot in common

F'k i was clean for years some meds and 60,000 $$ later // two wrecked cars i went to the hospital two of them one in the Us and im back and better than ever \\

that all happened v in 7 months fun wow
F'k i was such an idiot even a Od x2 didnt stop me

the comity of idiots that lives in my head in all addicts heads


take care stay safe clean

my best sincerely

[natenator]

it is no surprise to find addictive personality/behaviour and bodybuilding/weight training go hand in hand.

I'm not going to bother to share my story with the masses as it's not unlike some others already posted but no doubt if not for my bodybuilding lifestyle (and previously athletics) I'd be dead; in jail or ****ed up on something - likely booze.

[trainharder]

it is no surprise to find addictive personality/behaviour and bodybuilding/weight training go hand in hand.

I'm not going to bother to share my story with the masses as it's not unlike some others already posted but no doubt if not for my bodybuilding lifestyle (and previously athletics) I'd be dead; in jail or ****ed up on something - likely booze.

Good point, although I like to think that "obsessed" is just a word the lazy use to describe the dedicated

[AlbertaBeef]

I don't know what to say about this? I've been in and out of treatment, meeting rooms, hospitals, programs for close to twenty years and my past is a train wreck. I can't dwell on that and only look forward to the things ahead. I have been clean for over 2 yrs (it still friggin amazes me) and am in a 12 step program where I am currently also the general service representitive for my area. That being said I've seen a lot of hard cases and the one common denominator to their sobriety is accountability. The biggest thing with an addict is he is a selfish asshole who only thinks of himself and sings the blues when he's using because of distorted perceptions and cognitions resulting from the drug. When you realize and commit to something more important than yourself then you become accountable and respectful of your own self and your actions, that is why God is key in 12 step programs. I personaly have a wife now and am a leader in a few ministries at my church along with my respect at my gym that keep me from falling back to my old self. Your answer is in your sig and the 4 other solas, and he's speaking to you through your wife, freinds and family who would suffer more pain than any de-tox you could imagine because of the addiction.

[gicantor]

The brotherhood of this board is incredible. Total support for your fellow members. This is what keeps me coming back.

Were with you CM. Keep your head up.

[Ritch]

I think some people have an addiction to porn on this site...

[Sandwiches]

...

[BritishColumbian]

I think some people have an addiction to porn on this site...

Is that you in your avatar?

[Ritch]

that, or they never get laid

says the man with the pic of an ass as his avatar... Just kidding bro, I bet you get tons of poonanny!

[Ritch]

Is that you in your avatar?

We do have the same characters however. But seriously I love Mr Burns, just hearing him say "yes" makes me laugh. Sorry for the offtracking of this thread. I do have a story of my own, will post it when I have time.

[gustavo77]

Hey CM, thank you for sharing your experiences with us. I have struggled at times in my life also with substance abuse. You have to be strong bro and by being strong, I mean reach out and continue to reach out for help... God bless you bro and I pray that you will be successful in your recovery.

[warlock]

I have seen too many good and strong people to go down. cases of alcoholism close to me at an early age made me stay away from that type of crap.
I was 100% straight edge to the age of 26 totally out of fear of loosing control over myself.
I learned (in the wrong way) that you can drink but if you abuse instead of using the price can be high.
I have friends that preferred to destroy their lives instead of fighting, you are stronger than you think as you accepted the responsibility and are doing something to solve the problem at the best of your capability instead of just keeping whining and complaining.
I guess I should congratulate you!

[MMASTAR]

I had more than just a problem through my teenage years and understand what your going through. Your in my prayers and know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Time heals all wounds. Be strong!!

[hellfish]

man oh man, I think we all deserve a little green for this thread, what a community of support!

[Big D]

hey CM stay strong bro,

surround yourself around good people and keep smiling :)

we're all here for you

[canadianmuscle0803]

yikes guys!!

the support on here is unreal.. im very sad to say I don't have much time to reply right now but wow.. you guys are awesome.. i will go through each post when i get more time and try to reply to each one.. thanks a bunch.

[4031]

congrats bro! your going down the right path of recovery, keep up the good work and keep going to meetings, things will only get better

[kloan]

I think it's true that you're born an addict.. my mom's an addict, and some family as well on her side, so I think it's inherited. It's basically compulsive decisions that create habits.

Been clean/sober for over a year now. I was getting deep in it.. not to the point where I needed to be hospitalized, but it certainly was destroying my health.

The breaking point for me was learning how to recognize/hear the voice that persuaded the decision to drink, do a line, and another, and another, smoke sigs, etc.

As soon as I learned how to hear that voice, I could pinpoint exactly when I'd go from not wanting to do something, to getting excited about doing it.

I found what helped me the most getting through that time and staying away from the temptations was to stay in the moment as much as I could. Every thought past or future is just a distraction to trick us into swaying from our resolve. When you feel your thoughts floating away, you need to stop and focus on the present moment. It's only in this moment clarity is possible, and in that is the only way to keep from falling into the old habits.

It takes a lot of hard work, practice, will power, discipline, but in the long run it's well worth it.

Good luck man! It's totally possible. You're not a victim of your decisions, you just have to remind yourself that ultimately you're in the driver's seat. Keep that ego in check, because it's the one that's going to try to convince you it's ok to do bad things.

[MMASTAR]

I think that it is not coincedence that a lot of people here share the same charateristics, we all seem to be all or nothing guys, anything we do we do 110% so we have to be carefull what we choose to do. I think this is where MMA like weightlifting is a good outlet. It requires focus, dedication and its a good way to vent. Hope your doing well and wishing you continued sucsess, i know you can do it, you just have to want to!

[zippythewonder]

I've been through some rough times as well. You've got to find the anchor within yourself. Even if you stray you should know there's an anchor inside you that will bring you back around to sober. Bodybuilding is the ONLY thing that really makes me feel the way that I want to feel. Drugs are like a soother, it's fine for about a minute and then your left "wanting" again. Keep believing in fitness. It won't let you down, ever.

I'm fairly new to the Canadian Bodybuilding site, but I'd like to share, that I think everyone that takes the time to write to help others, share feelings, photo's (yes even those photo's! LOL) are just awesome. What a great thing to be able to share within a sport/hobby that is often so personal and can be lonely at times. Go bodybuilders GO! Good on ya.

[Ongeau]

Hi my name is Ongeau, and I'm an Alcoholic and an addict.

my personality lends itself to self abuse, even if it is internet porn, (poke @ Ritch)

Bro. I know and many others here, know far too well what your going through. Many of us have run the gambit from pills, alcohol, coke, heroine and cycle of abusing the ones around us that these thigns come from. I personally have in the past lost my house and everything that I owned and started over on more than one occasion.

f you ever need to talk it out Brother, you have my contact info.

If your addiction is internet porn and pics of hot ass's then I cannot help you! i'm still learning to deal with that one myself, but since the wife helps me pick out some of the really hot ones I can't see me stopping anytime soon. lol, just trying to add some levity here.

Peace

[Avitoholis]

This thread is wonderful, it makes me proud to be a part of this community.

Canadianmuscle, I applaud you for starting this discussion and sharing with us all. As with many other members I have struggled through one addiction or another for the last 10+ years, thank you for reminding us that we are not alone in this daily fight.

Take care bro and stay strong.

[spankmonkey]

Thank you for sharing your story and congratulations on taking the first step to what will be a life long journey. You have come this far and no matter what comes your way you will survive using the support systems you are building around you now.
What turned on my light bulb was the realization that my self destructive behavior was affecting more than just me and that did not sit well with me. It sounds like you have come to that realization as well and if you hang on to that and keep your mind on the goal you will be king!
Peace

[wmk]

Heh bro, thanks for sharing. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Do you have a spiritual life? I am not going to preach any particular spiritual practice as they all have their own merits. But, what I do know is that the human heart will never be settled in the material world. The void empty feeling that a lot of people feel can be filled. People often seek to feed the emptiness or the depression that they feel with materialism, sex, food, or drugs. Every time we try to make our selves feel better through one of these measures it only becomes a temporary fix before we are searching for the next thing. I have seen many people go through this damaging cycle including myself. All of these negative behavior patterns all indicative of us searching for something on the conscious or sub-conscious level. We, just don't realize that our dark nights are caused by not tending to our spirits.

The only way for us to step away from the negative cycle is to find a spiritual life as it is our spirits that become depressed. Once you feed the spirit the rest comes naturally.

[BigWheel]

Heh bro, thanks for sharing. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Do you have a spiritual life? I am not going to preach any particular spiritual practice as they all have their own merits. But, what I do know is that the human heart will never be settled in the material world. The void empty feeling that a lot of people feel can be filled. People often seek to feed the emptiness or the depression that they feel with materialism, sex, food, or drugs. Every time we try to make our selves feel better through one of these measures it only becomes a temporary fix before we are searching for the next thing. I have seen many people go through this damaging cycle including myself. All of these negative behavior patterns all indicative of us searching for something on the conscious or sub-conscious level. We, just don't realize that our dark nights are caused by not tending to our spirits.

The only way for us to step away from the negative cycle is to find a spiritual life as it is our spirits that become depressed. Once you feed the spirit the rest comes naturally.


Thats great advice, up until m early 30's I totaly neglected this area of life and suffered through a year of depression and anxiety because of it.

Myself I still am not religious, but am spirtual(yes religion isnt the only form of spirituality) and have become quite aware of my soulfull being.

I learnt that my next cycle isnt going to really make my life better.

I wish you all the best in finding what works for you, its not an easy journey, but very rewading.

Remember in life do whats best for you in the long run, not just in the moment, you can avoid problems but they always resurface in some way(anxiety, depression, anger etc.)

[tiramisu]

My only experience with addiction is a short 20 year spell with tobacco. It took about 5 years to fully recover from the addiction in terms of mental desire to start again under stress. These days it smells bad and I have no interest.

Addiction rewires your brain and it takes a long time for it to heal. Quite often longer than any of the damage done to your body. You will almost certainly need to change your environment and social interactions to be successful. There is also nothing wrong with AA/NA type support groups if that's what it takes to get you through. Some of them like to swap narcotics for jesus and I'm not a big fan of those but understanding your problem and having an outlet to vent (talk therapy) can be helpful.

Your fiancee can help too. I found my wife extremely supportive when I quit smoking, of course she was my gf at the time. Now that she's my wife she would probably give me a pack of cigarettes and tell me to go sit in the garage rather than listen to my whining but she was great at the time. :)

[LIVEHARD]

My only experience with addiction is a short 20 year spell with tobacco. It took about 5 years to fully recover from the addiction in terms of mental desire to start again under stress. These days it smells bad and I have no interest.

Addiction rewires your brain and it takes a long time for it to heal. Quite often longer than any of the damage done to your body. You will almost certainly need to change your environment and social interactions to be successful. There is also nothing wrong with AA/NA type support groups if that's what it takes to get you through. Some of them like to swap narcotics for jesus and I'm not a big fan of those but understanding your problem and having an outlet to vent (talk therapy) can be helpful.

Your fiancee can help too. I found my wife extremely supportive when I quit smoking, of course she was my gf at the time. Now that she's my wife she would probably give me a pack of cigarettes and tell me to go sit in the garage rather than listen to my whining but she was great at the time. :)

CIG's are the one addiction thats unique i will explain later

[canadianmuscle0803]

just an update, i have been sober for a week and i feel amazing.. i have a daily routine and it feels wonderful to have full control back in my life.. im going to daily meetings and for the first time im in a long time im excited to train with weights again, im starting at a new gym tomorrow and im pumped..

[LIVEHARD]

just an update, i have been sober for a week and i feel amazing.. i have a daily routine and it feels wonderful to have full control back in my life.. im going to daily meetings and for the first time im in a long time im excited to train with weights again, im starting at a new gym tomorrow and im pumped..

one step at a time na or aa

i speak at least once a month

[LIVEHARD]

just an update, i have been sober for a week and i feel amazing.. i have a daily routine and it feels wonderful to have full control back in my life.. im going to daily meetings and for the first time im in a long time im excited to train with weights again, im starting at a new gym tomorrow and im pumped..

meetings are great but you have to do the work not just the fun stuff

got a sponsor / home group yet

thats a good start

im easy to spot if i end up at one of your meetings

good luck

[canadianmuscle0803]

meetings are great but you have to do the work not just the fun stuff

got a sponsor / home group yet

thats a good start

im easy to spot if i end up at one of your meetings

good luck

lol @ your easy to spot.. so far i dont have a sponsor but im calling around, i found some guys in my first few meeting to be pretty wise. i wanna take it slow i dont want just anyone to sponsor me.. whats a home group?

[LIVEHARD]

lol @ your easy to spot.. so far i dont have a sponsor but im calling around, i found some guys in my first few meeting to be pretty wise. i wanna take it slow i dont want just anyone to sponsor me.. whats a home group?

thats the way


and lol not two many 6'4'' 265 lbs blond tattooed tanned at aa /na trust me

and growing huge bigger every day

pm me any time email is on my profile page

[AlbertaBeef]

lol @ your easy to spot.. so far i dont have a sponsor but im calling around, i found some guys in my first few meeting to be pretty wise. i wanna take it slow i dont want just anyone to sponsor me.. whats a home group?


Sponsors don't have to be permanent! People get temporary sponsors all the time but hell only 5 days clear you're still fresh so no rush. This is a marathon brother not a race, one step at a time and keep peace in your life.

[4031]

[whats a home group?[/QUOTE]

a home group is a particular meeting that you attend every week and do service for, ie: greet people, make coffee etc..

[Avitoholis]

4'4'' 265 lbs

Don't mean to get off topic but your 4'4"....and 265? That has to be a typo...

[natenator]

Don't mean to get off topic but your 4'4"....and 265? That has to be a typo...
he's a mail box lol

[LIVEHARD]

[QUOTE=natenator;206848]he's a mail box lol[/QUOTE


I should were my glasses 4'4'' LOL stump hard not live hard
4'4'' 265 F'Kn huge i think i would have to up it to 5000mg week

so at 6'4'' would have to be 385 lbs its average at 60.22lbs a foot

[LIVEHARD]

Sponsors don't have to be permanent! People get temporary sponsors all the time but hell only 5 days clear you're still fresh so no rush. This is a marathon brother not a race, one step at a time and keep peace in your life.

Just remember addiction can manifest itself in many forms.

sometimes drug use / sex / gambling / violence / over spending ( bling ) / shopping

whatever gives you that instant gratification so be mindful of your surroundings its about life and thought change not just cutting off the dope find your center your spiritually . Temp sponcers are great someone to call when your feeling F'ked up !!

Another 24 is almost over tomorrow is another day and it looks like a tonne of guys from CBB got your back


:yeah

[Gemini]

for the most part i think bodybuiders as a cultural

good luck bro, the most improtant thing i feel is to find something to keep your mind busy in place of the chemicals...

Hang in there man. tell yourself you're lucky to have been born in a rather good part of the world because when we think we have problems some have it much harder than us. Yet, some have it a lot easier but that's the way life is. You are your own master, you make your own future and God will only help you if you help yourself. Thanks for sharing the story with us and I will pray for you.

Legalize also pointed out a good advice, keep your mind busy. I used to smoke a lot of pot and I was always high, I realized I had to concentrate my energy on positive things and keep busy.

[canadianmuscle0803]

sup everyone.. had a great day today.. my first day back in the gym in about 6 months or so.. i feel amazing.. im getting lots of headaches and cant sleep well but thats life.. thanks to everyone that posted on this thread.. means a shit load, you dont even realize how much you guys are helping.

[4031]

good 2 hear bro, keep up the good work wish you another 24

[Scaffer]

im not sure about this one but,when i started workout at the gym, i though that ,you absolutely needed stimulants to workout,they were making my happy and i was swearing by them but i had to stop cause my resistance too them was too high,now that i train with only my cup of joe,i feel more proud of my workouts.

[spankmonkey]

sup everyone.. had a great day today.. my first day back in the gym in about 6 months or so.. i feel amazing.. im getting lots of headaches and cant sleep well but thats life.. thanks to everyone that posted on this thread.. means a shit load, you dont even realize how much you guys are helping.

Awesome Keep it up!

[Monka]

by the way, this is day 5 of my total recovery, i have not touched a single substance for 5 days thus far but this is a daily fight for me, iam an addict.. so i ask, please pray for me and my recovery as I know that this will be the battle of my life..
Hey bro, good for you, i just have trouble believing this pretty insane and isnt normal for most., sorry ( NOt that your lying in least) . opiates, have to be imo the hardest thing to quit from, and if you say you taking high amounts? like i've known people to take 2000mg-2400mg +daily for many years, (no big high) just for pain.. and even if they THINK of quitting, good luck, opiates will will take 3-4 days for MEGA sick. If your day 5 and can type, then your one of the few, most would be in bed or in hospital due to seizures if on hight doses possible seizures, , figure how does the body cope with high amounts then to quit? you'd defiantly be down for at LEAST 2 weeks JUST to move around a little, but feel shity still, some take 1/2 yr to recover just the withdrawl.Unless they have you on methadone (another drug BS shit) years or two ago,good friend with RLS was on many many years 6+ 1000mg-1500mg daily (not prescribed)and first week of quitting was super hard and bad sore, couldn't even type.. but they say you cant quit on own but he did, it's hard, and painful. but man bro, were you on long?
Unfortunately,there's MANY people on shit, and just suffer quietly and these will end up possibly dieing,Thing is these are people that will say hard core stay away while they pope there pill or so shit.... scary stuff, and best wishes to all.
Addiction imo stem from something else, if you have addiction and want to quit, i'd start to see a therapist also along with councilor, and really dig to find out why you started, might be surprised.. i guess maybe if you only taking low dose oxys you MIGHT live a little, but some even have 60mg and still sick weeks.. i dont know man, you seem to adjust well... good to hear
and glad you kicked, i see alot of addicts in town and it's very scarry

[canadianmuscle0803]

i dont know what to tell you.. i can tell you that the withdraw was the worst thing ever, but this was not the first time I had gone through this.. i have battled this for 2 yrs now. and I was nto ok when i was writing this on day 5.. the worst was over after the first 3 days but the cold and hot flashes and lethargic feeling never left me, i was a nervous wreck.. i just give praise to God and thats all i can do.. but why someone would think im lying about this is just beyond me.

[waderow]

I could barely understand what Monka wrote... He thinks you're a liar???

[trainharder]

I don't think he was calling him a liar - I think he's just saying that unless you've been there, it's hard to imagine just how horrible the addiction is.

I don't think he meant any disrespect from it..

Canadianmuscle, stay strong bro and know that all of us support you.

[Sandwiches]

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[RagingRandy]

Coming off can be a different experience for everyone. The time i quit smoking it was cold turkey and never had withdraws. The 10 times prior to that I was messed up and started again. When I used to do coke I used to vibrate knowing my dealer was on his way. When I quit I had no physical withdrawal. Some call it BS; I call it the power of God. The promise God made to Joshua in Joshua 1 is valid for us today.

Be strong and brave! Don’t be afraid and don’t panic, for I, the Lord your God, am with you in all you do.”

[Monka]

Ya, sorry err my french convertion, (MP knows) i was meaning that you seem to recover very quick, for a 2yr addiction, most would have to get detoxed, or go on methadone, and be weeks, like to quit opiates, i believe (not sure) is one of the hardest to quit, so bravo man, and yes, apparently the next day your just feeling shitty, THEN day 2-3 your totally ****ed , and i THINK most go threw pain all over for week... To be able to quit is great for you... keep it up and don't look back, hell some say you can still "feel" up to year later...