reintroduction

[rated_rko]

Hey guys its rated_rko here. Its been over 6 months now that I have checked in on the board and thru a post down. Ive been going through a lot lately. In February my mother suffered a stroke and went blind in her left eye due to diabetic renapathy. So I was taking her to eye doctors to try to get that helped or figure out what is going on with her, then she lost vision in her second eye….her diabetes progressed pretty bad since she has had it since 1982..and she also has her kidneys failing and neurapathy in her limbs and her not being mentally sound I had to get power of attorney so basically ‘ve been taking care of her and trying to deal with the hand of cards I got with me. Took a toll on me, because shes the only parent I have and I have no family, well I have an uncle and aunt but I told them about the situation and they came over and “surprisely” 200 dollars went missing from her purse when I went out to get groceries so I basically said **** it and cut them off, I don’t need that kind of family. But yeah been a lot of stress going on…I gotta take her for surgery this week, clinics, endless hospital visits and not to mention since I have power of attorney I inherit all her debts and I lost my job after 6yrs via txt msg in june so I just finished a course for security and plan on doing that as a job once I get my license in the fall because I need to take care of the bills of the house and well im probably going to sell it since shes ill and I don’t have the time to do everything and I want to wipe her credit card debt off as well..its taken its toll on me…I went from 245 to 200lbs…grey hair from stress im assuming…lost all motivation for the gym…and on top of that I hurt my tricep/elbow pretty bad…so im seeing my own surgeon on the 17th to see what he says…its been a hell of a ride….just felt like id share with you guys…here on CM and CBB have always been my family…for years now…and it sucks that life is so ridiculous and changes just like that. Sorry if it felt I was rambling guys but just throwing everything up here….bodybuilding was my life and hobby and now life is taking its toll on me physically and mentally it sucks….i was pretty depressed around june…5yr anniversary of my fathers debt/her being so ill/ and jobless…and me injuried I even considered suicide but thank god I didn’t...Im just taking everything in now and not stressing as much….so I figure I post this up here…
Thanks fore reading Rated_rko

[cog]

Sounds very draining.

[rated_rko]

it is but what can i say just part of life

[Delt King]

Hang in there bro, sometimes life sucks hard. But who knows what the future will hold for you.

[rated_rko]

thanks man

[theboss]

welcome back homie....we are here for you if and when you need us!

[MuSuLPhReAk]

Hey rko. Hang in there. Life has it's ups and downs. We're always here if you want to talk.

[Mr Ontario]

Welcome back :)

[rated_rko]

thanks guys....well she is recovering from her surgery slowly and has already shown signs of improvement in vision so i have another follow up on sept 7th. Hopefully it is more good news. As for myself, I was told i need surgery on my elbow and nerve transposition but im looking for a 2nd opinion. And i recently looked at a real estate agent to sell our home because she is in 70k creditcard debt so i will be listing our house for sale within in the next few weeks and looking for an apt because we can't afford the bills and i want her to be debt free, just another step in the process of such a crazy 2011 for me...Ive never moved yet alone have to deal with all these responsibilities....but yeah anyways guys thanks again for the kind words and support...much appreciated!