I can't deal with this

[PdH]

I just found out last night that a girl I used to be with, and care about alot, set her self on fire to commit suicide. She's not dead, but I can't think of anything worse. ****!

[MMASTAR]

wow man, thats rough, not everyone is equipped enough to deal with lifes issues, we all have our battles, i dont know how long ago you were close to her but maybe she just needs some support, but then again you have to decide if you want that in your life, sometimes its best to avoid certain situations, not to sure what to say on this one bro. Best of luck.

[turboturist]

I just found out last night that a girl I used to be with, and care about alot, set her self on fire to commit suicide. She's not dead, but I can't think of anything worse. ****!

Jesus man..... Not sure what to say??

Did you keep in touch with her or find out from a friend of a friend?

[Mr Ontario]

how long ago did you date her?

[bigtavi8]

jez. Cbb brothas reach out to you in this time of shit going on. I know first hand what it feels like to feel helpless and looking for a way out. When your thinking clearly it all seems unreal but when in a mindstate that you can not break the mind can tell you to do crazy things. I hope to god she can recover and live a full life and PdH brotha just try to take it all in and not let it destroy you. At the same time you should if you care a lot about the women be there for her if u can in this time of great need no matter how rough the situation.

[PdH]

I was just with her a couple of weeks ago. I knew she was a little depressed, but she was on meds and therapy. I couldn'd do anything else for her could I? I'm ****ing loosin it. I don't know what the **** to do here.

[PdH]

I hope to god she can recover and live a full life and PdH brotha just try to take it all in and not let it destroy you. At the same time you should if you care a lot about the women be there for her if u can in this time of great need no matter how rough the situation.

Bro, I appreciate your concern and candor, but she ain't going to recover bro, she covered herself with gasoline or something and set herself on fire.

How you all like the the Aboriginal despair now.

[MMASTAR]

how were you to know man, there was nothing you could have done.

[tiramisu]

A similar thing happend to my father only it was his brother who lit him up. Playing w/ gas by the river. Skin grafting has come a long way but it doesn't fix the part that's broken on the inside. I can't even imagine the self loathing it takes to light yourself on fire. That is some seriously fugly shit.

[declan]

There are people who cannot battle their own demons, so they seek another way out. She did not succeed this time but chances are she will try it again.

Sorry to hear this.

[Bowlcut]

I was just with her a couple of weeks ago. I knew she was a little depressed, but she was on meds and therapy. I couldn'd do anything else for her could I? I'm ****ing loosin it. I don't know what the **** to do here.

You can't go acting like this is somehow your fault. Your friend is dealing with some tough issues, but you can't go second guessing yourself for not stopping this as I doubt anyone really could have.

[MuSuLPhReAk]

Sorry to hear that PdH. I've known people who took their own lives and it affects you no matter how you go about thinking of it. She needed help and fell through the cracks. It's not your fault what happened. Her family (if any) must be devastated. She ruined her life physically now. Hopefully she can find some way to live a normal life with some help now.

There is a saying about suicide that is written very well.
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

[RagingRandy]

As I am sure you are aware strength does not come from without but from within. Even for us that achieve a decent level of physical strength the root of that is mental strength. I am going to assume that this person was a native from a previous post. I have always thought natives were short-changed. They were short-changed due to the fact they had things to easy. Think of it this way.....if a child does not need to fend for itself the parent is doing a disservice to that child. If things are too easy they become complacent. I know the only way I keep my wits is that I am challenged on a daily basis. We need this as humans to grow.

I am sure you know this is not your fault and you could have done nothing to change the outcome.

[L3]

sorry to hear that pdh :(

[dremen]

Sorry to hear this man. Good thing you were not together anymore huh.

Man she really picked a horrable way to go, like that's ****ing EXTREME no???

[#8]

Holy shit that is ****ed up. I feel for you bro, and her, and her family. Nobody should ever feel like that ever.

[PdH]

It's not my fault but why do I feel like it is? Why did she burn herself? ****, jam a bottle of insulin and be done with it easily. They took her to a hospital in Montreal for some reason. I want to go see her but I'M AFRAID.

[PdH]

Sorry to hear that PdH. I've known people who took their own lives and it affects you no matter how you go about thinking of it. She needed help and fell through the cracks. It's not your fault what happened. Her family (if any) must be devastated. She ruined her life physically now. Hopefully she can find some way to live a normal life with some help now.


Well said but I still feel responsible in some way. I held the girl in tenderness. ****.

[buildinthaskinnys]

It's not my fault but why do I feel like it is? Why did she burn herself? ****, jam a bottle of insulin and be done with it easily. They took her to a hospital in Montreal for some reason. I want to go see her but I'M AFRAID.

Don't be afraid, be strong. Take care this will get better for both of you.

[PdH]

Don't be afraid, be strong. Take care this will get better for both of you.

I appreciate your words, but how is it going to get better for Tara? She covered herself with gasoline and set herself on fire. She's scarred beyond recognition. She was a healthy little 24 year old hottie before. She's now in the burn unit full of morphine with no chance of ever looking or acting like herself again. Jesus Christ.

[dremen]

It's not my fault but why do I feel like it is? Why did she burn herself? ****, jam a bottle of insulin and be done with it easily. They took her to a hospital in Montreal for some reason. I want to go see her but I'M AFRAID.

Dude if you're going to feel bad do it from a distance. I would stay the **** away from her if I was you bro.

She don't need you, she needs doctors and psycologists. If she could do this to herself lord only knows what she would do to others.

Seriously man I only say this cause I like ya....STAY THE **** AWAY.

Best wishes.

[mersanary]

Sorry to hear that PdH. How long/well have you known this woman? There are some deep issues there man. You say she was already on meds and therapy. Try not to take it to heart as much as you can, even though it must be impossible not to as it hits so close to home

If you two are close friends and you choose too, anything you do now could help her very much. But be careful she must be dealing with so much, and there is only so much you can do before the person has to help themselves.

Take care of yourself and what's important to you

[musclehead123]

bro its not your fault, you could not do anything. She needs to love herself, and i believe if more people would do this they would not suffer from depression. If you are going to go see her your going to have to be strong. I know that is easier said than done. But i dont think she'll even acknowlegde you just because of the morphine. If you do go see her do not let the first words out of your mouth be "OH MY GOD!".

Really sorry to hear about what shes going through and what you go through. Try to think positive, and believe it!

[PdH]

I'm going to go see her cause my Bro is going to go with me, which provides the support I need right now. (he's not going in) The first words out of my mouth will be "Tara". We weren't exclusive but we saw each other on occasion. If I don't go see her it will haunt me for the rest of my life. I think it might help her to. I don't know.

[69challenger]

^^be strong phd...my thoughts and prayers are with you.

[PdH]

Rest in Peace Tara. We had such light together. I'll see you on the other side and our light will shine beyond measure.

My homage. Thank you Tea Party. I miss you Tara. I hope you've found peace.

got a letter from a messenger
i read it when it came
it said that you were wounded
you were bound and chained
you had love and you were handled
you were poisoned you were pained
oh no, oh no you were naked
you were shamed

you could almost touch heaven
right there in front of you
liberty just slipped away on us
now there's so much work to do
oh the door that closes tightly
is the door than can swing wide
oh no, not expecting to collide

for a minute i let my guard down
not afraid to be found out
i completely forgot dear
what our fears were all about
oh no,oh no there's no need to be without

if there's a chance i would take it, TAKE IT!!
this desire i can't kill, NO !
take my heart please don't break it, break it!!
i will crawl to your foothill

i'm frightened but i'm coming
please baby please lay still !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh no i'm not coming for the kill
oh no i'm not coming for the kill
oh no i'm not coming for the kill

[dremen]

I hope Ms. Cameltoe Canada helps bring a smile to your face pdh:)

Honestly brudda hope you're ok.

http://img224.imageshack.us/img224/3320/misscameltoe781035.jpg

[turboturist]

I knew she was a little depressed, but she was on meds and therapy. I couldn't do anything else for her could I?

No there is definitely not anything else you could of done to prevent this, THIS IS NOT YOUR FAULT. Surround your self with some family and friends so you your self have some support to get through this.

[BAM]

Stay Strong Bro.

[treebuilder]

Rest in Peace Tara. We had such light together. I'll see you on the other side and our light will shine beyond measure.

My homage. Thank you Tea Party. I miss you Tara. I hope you've found peace.

got a letter from a messenger
i read it when it came
it said that you were wounded
you were bound and chained
you had love and you were handled
you were poisoned you were pained
oh no, oh no you were naked
you were shamed

you could almost touch heaven
right there in front of you
liberty just slipped away on us
now there's so much work to do
oh the door that closes tightly
is the door than can swing wide
oh no, not expecting to collide

for a minute i let my guard down
not afraid to be found out
i completely forgot dear
what our fears were all about
oh no,oh no there's no need to be without

if there's a chance i would take it, TAKE IT!!
this desire i can't kill, NO !
take my heart please don't break it, break it!!
i will crawl to your foothill

i'm frightened but i'm coming
please baby please lay still !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh no i'm not coming for the kill
oh no i'm not coming for the kill
oh no i'm not coming for the kill

Hope you find some peace....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w98SWuVbEjo&feature=related

[Mr Ontario]

I'm thinking more of renting a garage and taking a bunch of sleeping pills and turning on the car.

Ya... man don't blame yourself for sure...

Keep us posted.


It's not my fault but why do I feel like it is? Why did she burn herself? ****, jam a bottle of insulin and be done with it easily. They took her to a hospital in Montreal for some reason. I want to go see her but I'M AFRAID.

[guest]

Rest in Peace Tara. We had such light together. I'll see you on the other side and our light will shine beyond measure.



she passed?

sorry PdH, hopefully time can provide the healing you seek.

[GYMBRAT]

very sorry to hear my brutha. It was outa your control way before you ever met her.

[Big D]

**** sorry to hear PDH, stay strong man, we are all here for you

[pw154]

Self immolation is pretty extreme; I can't fathom why anyone would choose to end their own life, especially in this way. She must have had a lot of demons inside. :(

Stay strong brother.

[wrought]

Honestly I would be relieved to hear that she passed if I were you bro...there's nothing you could have done to prevent it or could have done after the fact to help her and putting yourself into the situation would have damaged you more than you think.

[marino]

PDH I am at a loss for words. What a terrible way to lose someone close to you.

[_Ragnar_]

So sorry for your loss PDH. :(

[LonelyBedouin]

Very sorry to hear for the loss of a friend. I have lost one of my friends a couple years ago and its still gets me sometime.

Like everyone has said, you could not have done much else for her except what you did. This is in no way your fault and do not let it hang on your shoulders thinking it was your fault.

[countrychic]

so sad :( sorry pdh!

[IronMan]

I'm so sad for your loss of someone so dear to you bro. My condolences, thoughts and prayers go out to you and those who knew her, seriously! I've lost a dear friend right after his 33rd birthday 2 weeks ago. It's can be really really freaking hard to deal with, but you will get through it bro, and remember she is no longer suffering. Sad I know, horrible thing that happened, but it happened..... I hope these things that happen to people we love and/or care about will serve as a strong reminder how precious life really is, how we should live EVER day to the fullest, and how we should take care of ourselves, mentally and physically. I'm not saying she wasn't, or referring that statement to this exact situation, just in general. I know it sounds cleshey but I'm speaking straight from the heart. Take care iron brother and be strong!

[St]

Rest in Peace Tara. We had such light together. I'll see you on the other side and our light will shine beyond measure.


Shit sorry the hear the bad news,call me anytime you want to chat.Shit my stomach just doesn't feel good after hearing the sad news.

[Bojangles31]

Sorry for your loss bro.

[Spyder122]

That's horrible. You have my sympathies bro.

[ironwill]

God bless, stay strong .....Sorry for your loss bro!!!

[PdH]

Thank you everyone for your kind words and support. It's affected me dramatically and I've needed a couple of days to sort it out. I really cared for Tara, she may have had some problems like the rest of us, but she never hurt anyone else. Of course I'm still messed up over it, and will be for some time, and could really use some help from my Bros. I just feel such rage. L3 and ST, if I could contact you that would be great, my other bros outside the community here don't seem to understand completely. Nate to if you're ok with that. Thank you Bros.

Peace out.

[Rhinobolt10]

So Sorry for your loss man.

It's normal to feel sad in a way I can't understand brother, but do your best not to blame yourself. There was nothing you could have done. Really.

Best of luck man, and keep us all updated.