L3
02-10-2009, 11:55 AM
ive been seeing a girl on and off for the past 3-4 years. ive cheated on her, she cheated on me, we got back together. we starte ddating other ppl, cheated on them together, respectively broke up, and started seeing each other.
for the past 8 moths shes wanted to rebuild our relationship. it will never work. my friends hate her, and only a few guys know im still seeing her. ive been treating her like shit. like seriously, i havent been nice to her at all.
it has not been a healthy "relationsihp" at all. i guess ive been holding on to her because i enjoy talking to her when im bored, and because shes as dirty as i am in bed. which is quite dirty. ive banged a couple other girls too. in the last few months.
so last week i told her, im done with you. we didnt speak for a week. then we talked again, and she said shes considering dating her ex. who lives in my ****ign buildiing. and is black.
now, you would think that its a great time to cut her off completley and move on with my life. but i cant. ever since then ive been obsessing with her. now the roles are revesrsed, shes treating me like shit and i cant get enough of her. its so bad i get anxiety and stomach discomfort when i think about her with that guy.
sometiems i wish i could be a sociopath for just a little while. i think my problem is i need a new girl, which is partially why im on a cutting diet right now. she's indifferent, because now she has a plan B - her ex.
i dont know what to do. im trying really hard to not call or text her but its not working. and the more i smother her the more she will not want me, as was the case earlier when the roles were reversed. but i also dont trust her not to see this guy.
i guess it ocmes down to, i dont want her to be happy and me be unhappy. so i can either get back together with her and my friends esp the girls will not be impressed, or i can wait it out and let time pass and get over her.
i just dont know what to do, i dont want to deal with it, but i cant get her out of my head.
for the past 8 moths shes wanted to rebuild our relationship. it will never work. my friends hate her, and only a few guys know im still seeing her. ive been treating her like shit. like seriously, i havent been nice to her at all.
it has not been a healthy "relationsihp" at all. i guess ive been holding on to her because i enjoy talking to her when im bored, and because shes as dirty as i am in bed. which is quite dirty. ive banged a couple other girls too. in the last few months.
so last week i told her, im done with you. we didnt speak for a week. then we talked again, and she said shes considering dating her ex. who lives in my ****ign buildiing. and is black.
now, you would think that its a great time to cut her off completley and move on with my life. but i cant. ever since then ive been obsessing with her. now the roles are revesrsed, shes treating me like shit and i cant get enough of her. its so bad i get anxiety and stomach discomfort when i think about her with that guy.
sometiems i wish i could be a sociopath for just a little while. i think my problem is i need a new girl, which is partially why im on a cutting diet right now. she's indifferent, because now she has a plan B - her ex.
i dont know what to do. im trying really hard to not call or text her but its not working. and the more i smother her the more she will not want me, as was the case earlier when the roles were reversed. but i also dont trust her not to see this guy.
i guess it ocmes down to, i dont want her to be happy and me be unhappy. so i can either get back together with her and my friends esp the girls will not be impressed, or i can wait it out and let time pass and get over her.
i just dont know what to do, i dont want to deal with it, but i cant get her out of my head.