Depression dieting or substance use.

[bigtavi8]

Last show i had a very hard time while dieting. The diet itself was flawless but my mind was not good at all to say the least. I literally went crazy. I went from a happy go lucky guy to a depressed anxious goon. I remember sleeping for days and getting such bad anxiety i would throw up and hyperventilate. All along i blamed my supplements, diet, and comp for the problems. Now looking back after things have happened and i drasticly changes my lifestyle i feel so good i cant explain it. Im just so pumped up and im living a clean life. I did some things im not proud of. (smoking 4 grams a weed a day, popping presciption meds, drinking uncontrollably, other substances). But now that i can admit i ****ed up and feel 110% better i just wish i would have realized earlier. Substances can **** up your mind bad even in moderation and now after going through it all im just so happy to be alive and be in the gym again. I got a new start and shit im just ****ing pumped. Sorry for wasting your time guys but i just need to let it out. If anyone of you guys has problems with substances or mental health pm me and well talk...CBB is a brotherhood and certain bros from here really helped me out when i was feeling at my wits end...
Tav

[LIVEHARD]

Last show i had a very hard time while dieting. The diet itself was flawless but my mind was not good at all to say the least. I literally went crazy. I went from a happy go lucky guy to a depressed anxious goon. I remember sleeping for days and getting such bad anxiety i would throw up and hyperventilate. All along i blamed my supplements, diet, and comp for the problems. Now looking back after things have happened and i drasticly changes my lifestyle i feel so good i cant explain it. Im just so pumped up and im living a clean life. I did some things im not proud of. (smoking 4 grams a weed a day, popping presciption meds, drinking uncontrollably, other substances). But now that i can admit i ****ed up and feel 110% better i just wish i would have realized earlier. Substances can **** up your mind bad even in moderation and now after going through it all im just so happy to be alive and be in the gym again. I got a new start and shit im just ****ing pumped. Sorry for wasting your time guys but i just need to let it out. If anyone of you guys has problems with substances or mental health pm me and well talk...CBB is a brotherhood and certain bros from here really helped me out when i was feeling at my wits end...
Tav
Been there bro A few times in my life addiction depression we should all help each other

i was 16 years clean

now Im one year Clean today

after a massive relapse that landed me a jacket with buckle up sleeves for 48 hours

after 60 days in two hospitals i returned to the living the gym and to my career with a tone of support